Christmas Cards!

Here is a sample of what is going to come on our Christmas Cards!!!!

I am so excited to send them all out! I am almost done just need to stamp them and get the cards in the envelopes!!!

I can't wait!!! Cass is getting so big! She is now sitting by herself has been for about a month now! It is so cute to watch her get to this point.... they grow sooo fast! it's hard to keep up with!

They keep getting busier and busier as days go on!!

Hope everyone has a great holiday season! I will post more this month, when my cards go out! I can't ruin the surprise!!! haha

Joys of watching a baby learn

Cassandra at 4 months old

Almost 5 months in 2 weeks!!!

We made it to 4 months! Didn't seem to take too long, kind of just flew by!

Been awhile since I have last made a blog post so there are lot's of new things to enter!

Cass has began to roll over from her tummy to her back! she seemed to catch on to this a little to fast for me, but she did it!! She stopped for about a week and now you can't keep her on her tummy because she just keeps rolling! Its quite fascinating! I look away for a second and she is sticking her toes in her mouth, pretty soon I will look away and have her turning 1 years old!!!

She has also began to touch our faces and reach for toys, pull off glasses, and really talk to us!!I wish I could post videos as well as pictures .

Cass also got to meet some more people as well! she met two of my really close friends Kerri and Katey!

Katey and her boyfriend Steve used to live in Australia so this is the first time since they have been back that they met! and we got to see them twice in one month!!! I think she fell in love instantly! 

I am a little short for words lately.. But 5 months is coming up soon, so maybe I will have something a little more interesting to post this next time around!!!!

I was complaining that our Nissan Rogue was too small, and I had some issues I had to deal with at the dealership and so they asked me how I still liked my vehicle, I loved it!!! but the space was just a little too small for us, and it was tight.

So today I came home a new owner of a mini van... yes now I am a soccer mom... 

Proud new owner!!! haha I got a Nissan Quest.. boxy van but super nice on the inside and tons and tons of room!

Alex made me promise no more new vehiclse for another 5 years hah... I think I will have to deliver with this promise instead of another one in only 7 months! Cass really likes to ride in it, she slept today for about 1.5 hours in it!!! she loves it too!!

Hope everyone is doing well!!!

Birthday's once a month

This Adorable baby girl has been the center of our world for 3 incredible, breathtaking months.

Happy birthday Cassandra!

Cass wore her 3 month onsie all day today, and when I went into the super market today this lady said to me.."Isn't it funny... Babies have a birthday every month until they are 1 years old.. then they get shafted and only get one once a year"... I looked at her and laughed.. got home..and realized, that is so true!

We did a photo shoot today. Here are some photos I took.

This past week has been exciting once again! Cass discovered her feet for first time yesterday! I decided to take a nap while she was in her chair and she was playing away, I woke up to her ringing the bell! Took that as a get up mom!!!! As I open my eye I see her playing with the toys on her chair with her feet, and she was grabbing them and moving her legs and feet around and pushing the toys everywhere. To me that is a huge moment. It is a moment where she is realizing that she has legs and feet and can use them. Concordantion!!! something I lack..so maybe she does have more of Alex in her than me.
So ever since Cass was born it has been "oh she looks so much like Alex"..to the point where it almost felt like it hurt, maybe not hurt, but I wanted just ONE person to say she looks like I do!  I know she looks like Alex.. we all know who the dad actually was;) Not that that was ever an issue... hahaha but it was a joke after she was born... Who was the mom?? haha.. well I am going to prove she looks like me a bit.. YES! SHE LOOKS LIKE ALEX.. I KNOW!!!  but you have to admit.. there is some of me in her..
My Uncle Rick met her for the first time today and he was excited to see that she has De Rosa hands and feet!!! Take that Cwikowski's hahah;)

So three months have past.. and they have gone by so quickly its amazing once you start thinking back to the day she was born.. Just yesterday she was one day old.. and now she is 3 months!

Teething, Shopping, Growing, Christmas..

When I look into your eyes, it's like watching the night sky and a beautiful sunrise
 I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough I'm giving you both all of my love.






So I wrote this super long post.. and I clicked something... and then all of a sudden my post was gone!!!!:(

Right now, I am sitting and relaxing. Alex went on a men's golfing trip this weekend he will be back tonight, I went and stayed at my mom's last night and went shopping today. I think I have a shopping addiction. This was for a good cause.. Christmas shopping for Cass. I am planning a head..This is going to be one exciting Christmas even though she is still so young and will only be 6 months. this is the year for firsts so it's all pretty exciting!.. I am already excited for christmas next year! Christmas.. that's supposed to be a foreign word right now.. But when you sit and think, it is September 9th..that means 3 months till Christmas which is 107 days 2558 hours... scary hey!

This past week has been fairly exciting, Cass rolled over from her back to her tummy( only for my parents), she pulled the bell in her chair which we have been waiting for, for awhile, and she has let out some giggles.. She is always talking a lot!!! talking means coos and aaas and noises.. but she has definitely found her voice.. she is loud and seems to always be so happy! I have one amazing baby!

Things are definitely starting to look up! I am a lot happier, and the "healing" process is done. They figured out what was wrong with me and now I am all good! I am always trying to make my days full of activities between naps and cleaning and doing one thing a day for myself, it is a pretty busy day most of the time. I am not a huge fan of this teething stage though.. A little early it seems, I am hoping these teeth don't come too quickly, I am not ready to stop breast feeding haha but once these teeth do come, I will be done.. I can still pump though, which I wouldn't mind. I think I will just miss my"bonding" time with her, which I am sure I can make during the days and putting her to bed at  night!

I am working on a photo wall in Cass's bedroom, full of pictures of her and us. I can change the photos often and see how fast she grows.. You can really see that from the photos. I can't wait for this wall to be finished and I can start on a new project!

Tomorrow Alex is going to put up some of our new baseboards in the bedroom, and we are going to try to finish some of our small projects around the house that just never seemed to get done before Cass was born! I am excited for the day the renos will finally be done!!

Cass just woke up so I better post this and continue on with my night!

Goodnight

lifes new miracles

Our family

It came together on June 14th 2012 at 8:23 am...

I was induced on the 13th of June, maybe my body just didn't want to push for her to come out till the 14th.. we would like to skip the Friday the 13 birthdays...But after a "short" 24 hours later.. We were no longer two.. But three.

a magical three... Three of us means we can rule the world right?

more like the world can rule us.. Or just one small little darling baby girl.

Cassandra Leanne Cwikowski 

Her name took a little time to think of.. We loved Madison.. but everywhere you looked or heard people talking it was always Madison.... So going through a long list later Cassandra it is! Leanne is special though... Lea is my Mom and Brother... and Ann is my middle name and my Grandmas..means the world to me.. so maybe it will mean the world to her one day, wish we could have added everyone's name in there.. but Cwikowski.... well that's long enough.. lets not haunt the poor girl... So we made it a little easier.. only 24 characters long... 2 short of the alphabet.... Yes easier?

Our family now is Alex and I, Cassandra and Abby, Zoey ( the dogs).

Poor Alex is extremely out numbered.

Well the first couple days were life changing didn't matter how I pictured life to be when we got home, it was absolutely nothing like the change we had to just jump right into. There's no learning or getting used to this type of thing its just taking the plunge... no longer sleeping, eating, drinking, showering, changing a countless number of dirty diaper's, trying to keep this little princess happy..and trying to totally forget you do have a house to take care of as well.. but how do you fit that into the schedules? you learn. the help we had after Cass was born was unbelievable a huge thanks to my Mom and Dad and as well As the in-laws......The emotions that are involved with going home for the first time, the feelings that change in a second and you cant control them, the tears that come for no reason, and the countless tears you cry for pure happiness are pretty indescribable..Not to mention the new love you have.. Like no other love in the world.. Who would have thought the heart could love so much and take in so much in all at the same time.

The first couple nights for us were pretty hard to deal with, where does she sleep (bassinet) but right beside the bed or against the wall by the door? by the bed it was.. bad mistake.. so we put her by the door... how many times do I have to check to see if she is breathing every night, how do I know she will make it through the night.. that was one was hardest.. SIDS.. a topic I still don't  like to talk about.. but once talked to with the health nurse it was a little more reassuring.. now nights are a whole lot better and less anxiety.

I still catch myself 12 weeks later looking at her and wonder where she came from and how she became.

Alex described having a new baby like this.." You love your wife, you love your dogs, but no words describe the love for your child that was just born "

No one tells you the heart ache you have to go through, or what happens after birth.. I am also going to leave that part out.. lets just say it took 10 weeks to feel human.. a 10 weeks I cant get back...

a 10 weeks I got to enjoy my little cassandra, but not at 100%.Now it is at100% and let me tell you.. NOTHING can describe this feeling... I AM HUMAN AGAIN!!! with a gorgeous baby girl!!!! and an amazing hard working husband!.. life's damn good!

 In twelve weeks.. she learned how to smile.. had a first bath, had numerous doctors appointments, went on a trip to the in-laws, went to the states already she went to her first two weddings.. had the largest poop I think I have ever seen and the messiest I have ever had to clean up so far, have met an outstanding amount of people, have received the most incredible gifts a human can ask for, went camping for her first time, and swimming for the first time.. the list of firsts can go on... but this leads to a funny story.

We were taking pictures of Cassandra a couple days after we got home for the hospital.. naked... I know your thinking.. Oh I know where this is leading.. well I am sure you are right.. .. Why would someone not put a diaper on a brand new baby.. Don't they know they poop.... LOTS!!!!

Well.. I never really thought of this.. so we were taking photos and I place Cass in a position while she is awake,and I hear her fart.. well we laugh and then all of a sudden I heard bubbles... look down and there is a huge puddle of orange chunky poop!!! I begin to laugh and Alex is laughing where do we even begin to start to clean up.. So I grab her, and Think she is done pooping well funny part.. she's not.. so I look down.. there is poop dripping down her leg on to the kitchen chair on the floor and on my foot!!!! just wonderful! so we rush her to the kitchen sink! try to clean her off and give her a bath. but it doesn't happen just like that...first we run to her bedroom.. why did we go there so we run out meanwhile poop is still dripping on to the floor... and then finally decide to go to the kitchen... and then about 10-15 minutes later.. we have a clean baby again in a diaper taking photos.. the smart way.

We did get this gorgeous photo out of the whole "poop" deal though.

One fact parents should tell other parents, poop stains.. badly, why hold that one back that's a mean one to not share with other people.. There are some poops though, that are just not worth saving their clothes...That's how messy they are. That's how badly they will stain..

We are almost caught up to the twelve weeks... I know there are about a million more stories I can tell but I will keep updating and telling stories as we go.. I have 18+ years of this!:)

can't wait for our lifes adventures!!

Here are some more pictures of our sweet little Cassandra!