lifes new miracles

Our family

It came together on June 14th 2012 at 8:23 am...

I was induced on the 13th of June, maybe my body just didn't want to push for her to come out till the 14th.. we would like to skip the Friday the 13 birthdays...But after a "short" 24 hours later.. We were no longer two.. But three.

a magical three... Three of us means we can rule the world right?

more like the world can rule us.. Or just one small little darling baby girl.

Cassandra Leanne Cwikowski 

Her name took a little time to think of.. We loved Madison.. but everywhere you looked or heard people talking it was always Madison.... So going through a long list later Cassandra it is! Leanne is special though... Lea is my Mom and Brother... and Ann is my middle name and my Grandmas..means the world to me.. so maybe it will mean the world to her one day, wish we could have added everyone's name in there.. but Cwikowski.... well that's long enough.. lets not haunt the poor girl... So we made it a little easier.. only 24 characters long... 2 short of the alphabet.... Yes easier?

Our family now is Alex and I, Cassandra and Abby, Zoey ( the dogs).

Poor Alex is extremely out numbered.

Well the first couple days were life changing didn't matter how I pictured life to be when we got home, it was absolutely nothing like the change we had to just jump right into. There's no learning or getting used to this type of thing its just taking the plunge... no longer sleeping, eating, drinking, showering, changing a countless number of dirty diaper's, trying to keep this little princess happy..and trying to totally forget you do have a house to take care of as well.. but how do you fit that into the schedules? you learn. the help we had after Cass was born was unbelievable a huge thanks to my Mom and Dad and as well As the in-laws......The emotions that are involved with going home for the first time, the feelings that change in a second and you cant control them, the tears that come for no reason, and the countless tears you cry for pure happiness are pretty indescribable..Not to mention the new love you have.. Like no other love in the world.. Who would have thought the heart could love so much and take in so much in all at the same time.

The first couple nights for us were pretty hard to deal with, where does she sleep (bassinet) but right beside the bed or against the wall by the door? by the bed it was.. bad mistake.. so we put her by the door... how many times do I have to check to see if she is breathing every night, how do I know she will make it through the night.. that was one was hardest.. SIDS.. a topic I still don't  like to talk about.. but once talked to with the health nurse it was a little more reassuring.. now nights are a whole lot better and less anxiety.

I still catch myself 12 weeks later looking at her and wonder where she came from and how she became.

Alex described having a new baby like this.." You love your wife, you love your dogs, but no words describe the love for your child that was just born "

No one tells you the heart ache you have to go through, or what happens after birth.. I am also going to leave that part out.. lets just say it took 10 weeks to feel human.. a 10 weeks I cant get back...

a 10 weeks I got to enjoy my little cassandra, but not at 100%.Now it is at100% and let me tell you.. NOTHING can describe this feeling... I AM HUMAN AGAIN!!! with a gorgeous baby girl!!!! and an amazing hard working husband!.. life's damn good!

 In twelve weeks.. she learned how to smile.. had a first bath, had numerous doctors appointments, went on a trip to the in-laws, went to the states already she went to her first two weddings.. had the largest poop I think I have ever seen and the messiest I have ever had to clean up so far, have met an outstanding amount of people, have received the most incredible gifts a human can ask for, went camping for her first time, and swimming for the first time.. the list of firsts can go on... but this leads to a funny story.

We were taking pictures of Cassandra a couple days after we got home for the hospital.. naked... I know your thinking.. Oh I know where this is leading.. well I am sure you are right.. .. Why would someone not put a diaper on a brand new baby.. Don't they know they poop.... LOTS!!!!

Well.. I never really thought of this.. so we were taking photos and I place Cass in a position while she is awake,and I hear her fart.. well we laugh and then all of a sudden I heard bubbles... look down and there is a huge puddle of orange chunky poop!!! I begin to laugh and Alex is laughing where do we even begin to start to clean up.. So I grab her, and Think she is done pooping well funny part.. she's not.. so I look down.. there is poop dripping down her leg on to the kitchen chair on the floor and on my foot!!!! just wonderful! so we rush her to the kitchen sink! try to clean her off and give her a bath. but it doesn't happen just like that...first we run to her bedroom.. why did we go there so we run out meanwhile poop is still dripping on to the floor... and then finally decide to go to the kitchen... and then about 10-15 minutes later.. we have a clean baby again in a diaper taking photos.. the smart way.

We did get this gorgeous photo out of the whole "poop" deal though.

One fact parents should tell other parents, poop stains.. badly, why hold that one back that's a mean one to not share with other people.. There are some poops though, that are just not worth saving their clothes...That's how messy they are. That's how badly they will stain..

We are almost caught up to the twelve weeks... I know there are about a million more stories I can tell but I will keep updating and telling stories as we go.. I have 18+ years of this!:)

can't wait for our lifes adventures!!

Here are some more pictures of our sweet little Cassandra!